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spoiler + dysphoria
I’m a little surprised other people view it this way, it felt like I was alone in that.
just because your body does not align with your actual gender doesn’t make you not that gender
I just don’t feel it, at least not now/yet. It feels so weird to say I’m a woman when I’m so… unwomanly.
Right now I wish I could just climb out of this corpse, but yea the best I can get is retrofitting it to be less bad.
I know it would be, and obviously I completely respect whatever feels best for other people.
sh feelings, dysphoria (don't read if easily sad)
sorry I try not to post about it too much because I’m not actually doing it and bringing it up brings a lot of sad vibes to the thread but whatever, I want to get this off my chest.
I keep having really strong sh urges, like I haven’t felt in a long time (maybe 2-3 years). Its so concentrated on my left arm and I know its from my general dysphoria. I hate my body so much and its just manifesting as this urge to hurt myself and its so hard. Its such a strong feeling. And its not even just for pain like it usually is, but I want to bleed too. Why is this my burden. I feel weak. The urge just keeps running through my mind. It keeps getting worse. My old scars feel like needles.
I am currently safe however.