Hi everybody! My schedule has been really unforgiving, so I may or may not end up writing something and making changes to the post later in the week.

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  • gaystyleJoker [she/her]@hexbear.netMEnglish
    9·
    2 months ago

    hi, does anyone wanna make the mega in the upcoming weeks? if so, reply to this post and i’ll add you to the list!

    the list as it stands:

    cummynism2cumharder (2/10 - 2/16)
Moss (2/17 - 2/23)
EstraDoll (2/24 - 3/2)
Yukiko (3/3 - 3/9)
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Eco* (3/24 - 3/30)

    ​ * after name denotes someone who has posted before and will be skipped by first-time posters

  • yewler [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    33·
    2 months ago

    Huh. I’m realizing that if I were to die tomorrow, I’d actually have a problem with that. I think this may the the first time I’ve been able to honestly say that. Neat

  • buh [she/her]@hexbear.netMEnglish
    28·
    2 months ago
    ranting about gebder

    I used to think being trans was some kind of horrible curse but the more I lean into it, I don’t just love the idea of it more, I love myself more. Life would have definitely been easier if I was born cis (of either gender) but I don’t think I could have the perspective I do if I never thought about gender the way I can now.

    • Beetle [hy/hym]@hexbear.net
      17·
      2 months ago
      spoiler

      Yes!! If I was cis I probably would never have explored my gender at all and missed a whole dimension to life. Being around genderqueer people is also so nice

    • EstraDoll [she/her, he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
      10·
      2 months ago
      spoiler

      yeah my opinion on it ranges anywhere from “god this sucks” to “okay, actually I kind of like having a broad chest”. No matter how bad my opinion on it gets at any given moment, I don’t think I’ve ever truly felt I was in the “wrong” body. Some women are trans. This has always been true and always will, and I’m one of them

      I really wish I could get pregnant

      I really wish I could sound like a cis girl

      I wish I didn’t have the broad chest and long arms of someone who didn’t go through T puberty

      but at the end of the day, I cannot say that any divine mistakes were made made. Venus made her daughter exactly as she was supposed to be

      • CrookedSerpent [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
        2·
        2 months ago

        You can sound like a cis girl btw. You just gotta send it. By send it, I mean use your best shot at a full femm voice at all times, especially when just talking to yourself at home. The first few weeks will be the most embarrassing shit ever but also the most liberating shit you’ve ever felt. Then after like 3 months of full sending it and rolling with the embarrassment, you’ll just start passing, just like that.

    • inTheShadowOf [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
      10·
      2 months ago

      Absolutely. I didn’t always feel the same, but I really appreciate being trans now. If I had the choice to reincarnate and choose how I come back, I think I’d want to be trans again.

  • nemmybun [she/her, sae/saer]@hexbear.netEnglish
    27·
    2 months ago

    Lots of exciting developments happening lately. I got my FFS surgery officially scheduled and it’s less than a month away now. Electrolysis is going well; my upper lip is almost clear (at least for this growth cycle) and my facial hair is visibly reduced in most areas except chin. I bought and used an epilator for the first time and though I was worried about pain at first, it’s honestly nothing compared to what I’ve been going though every week with electro. I’ll be starting speech therapy for feminization soon. I’ve been more social in 1 month than I was for all of last year, and I’ve already started work on (further) radicalizing my new friends. Oh and I’m like 99% sure I’m going to get the job I really want that I interviewed for recently, mostly because my resume was put forward by the boss and have other recs from inside the org supporting me.

  • buh [she/her]@hexbear.netMEnglish
    27·
    2 months ago

    I’ve been keeping a transitioning journal ever since my egg cracked months ago and it’s funny how shortly after I started HRT, it went from lengthy, emotional reflections on my life and thoughts about gender, to brief rudimentary and primitive phrases. they used to be one, if not multiple paragraphs, but the last two are just “booba itchy” and “so fucking horny rn”. it’s like in a horror game when you find logs from characters documenting getting infected and turning into a zombie, but instead of getting the T virus, I’m just turning into a girl.

  • EstraDoll [she/her, he/him]@hexbear.netEnglish
    26·
    2 months ago

    my egg cracked less than a year ago and now i’m completely and utterly stupefied that I ever even believed for a moment that I was a man. Like, not only do I look back thinking that I was always a girl, I don’t even believe myself when I think that before 2023, I legitimately believed that I was male. I know that fact is true but I don’t even believe that I believed it

    • yewler [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
      13·
      2 months ago

      I feel this big time. It’s unbelievable to me that there was ever a time before the egg crack and it’s not even been half a year for me. I regularly unlock new egg memories that make so much more sense now and it will be forever baffling that these moments didn’t crack me sooner

    • TerminalEncounter [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
      13·
      2 months ago

      I had such a loose association with being a man or a boy, as a kid it rarely came to mind except all the fuckin times I did ridiculous shit like try to cast magic spells or wish to be a girl or dunk cold fucking water on my head like I was Ranma. As an adult, it was more of a resignation - “oh yeah, I guess I’m a guy. A lot of my friends are girls, I’m a super ally, I’m attracted to my partner partially because they fuck a lot with gender, I love drag and do at every opportunity including very stretched opportunities, I know a lot about transitioning… but I’m a guy I guess.” lol

  • inTheShadowOf [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    23·
    2 months ago

    People on r/mtf really feel so comfortable talking about being in the military/vets and so many people are happy to engage with it. There’s a special level of disgust I have for queer people in the military.

    It’s reddit, so no surprise of course.