if you’re just purely bored, you find something interesting or exciting and you have fixed the problem and the need has been addressed whereas with ennui there’s a sort of restless interregnum-like quality where you experience a feeling of boredom but the thought of doing something exciting is also in itself boring somehow.
Contrary to what you said, this actually makes a lot of sense lol, and I think that all of what you wrote made me realize I really should get checked (for anything really). This sounds too close to home. Thank you again for sharing!
Out of curiosity (and only if this should apply to you and you feel comfortable sharing): Does auDHD also interfere with your experience of sexual desires? Meaning, is there conflict in that regard between autistic desires and ADHD desires?
It does, and thank you! I can relate a lot to what you said, especially the bubbling up of “new children’s toys”. And I would also definitely agree that you cannot ask for consent too often. Rather interrupt the moment than be uncertain or ambigious about it.