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Cake day: June 25th, 2025

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  • I never got a trophy for anything, but I did like the medal I got for my first wrestling win… it wasn’t, like, any big thing, but we were against a specific school that has a good program, it was my first year, I was the only girl on the team… and I won by techfall.

    It was definitely a participation trophy of sorts, but it actually felt ok to get. It was engraved to read “for beating your [school] opponent, and first win”

    We, as a team, lost to them. Badly.




  • I used to be like that, unable to dream/remember dreams. Turns out that was because I had nightmares and terrors and stress dreams and my brain simply didn’t want to remember them.

    I took a shaman drug (that I won’t mention, because I absolutely do not recommend it for anyone ever, and regret taking it myself) over the course of many months, and it absolutely gave me the permanent ability to dream and recall, and even consistently lucid dream (I don’t recall dreams every day, but at least once a week now). I now have a whole town that acts as a hub to get to all the places I’ve dreamed about more than once. It’s kinda fun.

    However, these dreams are massively emotionally taxing. I often encounter my mother (the point of the shaman drug is to interact with dead ancestors), so I’ve relegated her to a middle floor of “my house” so she’s easier to avoid… those experiences are… just so overwhelmingly taxing. They do help with some closure stuff even tho I know it’s just my brain making up both sides of things, but it’s draining all the same.


  • I haven’t worn a bra in decades other than occasional for a nice outfit sort of stuff.

    I don’t consider it self-care, I just don’t have boobs worth bra-ing up. Why waste the money for something that does nothing?

    Self care is doing whatever makes you comfortable, not what other people say should make you more comfortable.

    Lots of people, especially fem-presenting people, would be wildly uncomfortable with their nipples being visible through a tighter shirt, and you know what? That’s super understandable. People give me looks and comments not infrequently. It’s uncomfortable. That’s reasonable. I’ve stopped caring what small-minded people think so I’m over it, but it takes years to get comfortable with that, and that’s the opposite of self-care if it’s not something you already want to do.








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    I wonder if you could feed the paper into a printer and have some LLM without guardrails print out the names and likenesses of all the wealthy people on earth so they all die at once…

    The rules don’t say you can’t do that, you just need to write the name and have the image of the person in mind, and this might just fulfill those requirements, if just looking at someone while writing would do it. It’s not like you are capable of a perfect representation in your mind anyway, so ai might be close enough…

    I feel like that’s morally fairly clean since you didn’t do anything but fill a paper tray and write a prompt…