Asking Cheddar to put things on hold with Gouda doesn’t help anything, but you have every right to be hurt, and absolutely need to have that discussion.

The issue isn’t that Cheddar has a new partner and thus you have a new metamour, the issue is that you took things slowly with Swiss due to Cheddar needing time and space to process it, only to then not be given the same consideration or opportunity for discussion from her. And that’s what needs to be talked about and addressed.

Asking her to put things on hold won’t fix the problem of you not being considered or consulted, all it does is turn it in to a petty revenge thing, and create more problems (as you’ve seen).

Give her your blessing to keep things going with Gouda, but also, let her know how much she hurt you when she didn’t give you the same consideration she asked you to give her. If she takes that onboard and treats it seriously, then you’ll get through this. If she is dismissive of that, then the issue is in your relationship with her, not in her relationship with Gouda

I’m old, and maybe I’m wrong, but I feel that if jealousy is strong enough that it warrants making changes in how you relate with other people and there are many conversations about it… Then perhaps poly just isn’t working for the two of you in your current state.

That’s not to say that jealousy cannot exist in a healthy poly relationship, it is a human emotion after all, and colours all kinds of relationships - even friendships. I just think that jealousy related relationship turmoil is … not healthy poly.

Also, wanting to deny Cheddar the things you denied yourself for the sake of your interpretation of her feelings, not her requests, is retaliatory and not healthy.

Lots to unpack here.

If you value Cheddar and want things to work long term it may be time for both of you to step back and turn towards each other, get to the root of all these strong feelings on both sides, before you involve (and very possibly hurt) others.

You speak about Cheddar doing stuff with Gouda you have denied yourself doing with Swiss for Gouda’s sake, and it’s making you vengefully jealous.

My question is - did Cheddar explicitly ask these sacrifices of you, or did you just assume that it would be the right thing to do? edit: nevermind, gotta read better…

I feel like both of you handled some things suboptimally, but this particular aspect sounds like you’ve been doing this to yourself by assuming instead of communicating.

Generally I don’t really understand this situation. Jealousy is not something that just happens to someone and has to be avoided. Jealousy is the flashing warning signal that something is not right (like a relationship that is unstable, or a need that isn’t met), and the starting point of a conversation, not the end of it. But there doesn’t seem to be a conversation around that in your story. Why not?

I’ll never understand why some polyam people feel the need to move at the same speed as their partner. It’s not a contest. If a partner tells you they are uncomfortable with you moving at the speed you’re moving with someone new, then they certainly have a right to feel how they feel, but they don’t have a right to expect you to modify how you relate with another person in order to appease their discomfort.

You chose to do so with Cheddar, which was your own decision to make. That being said, if I were Swiss and found out that you were the sort of person who would allow your nesting partner’s emotions to hold weight in the relationship you share with me, then I don’t know that I’d be comfortable being partners with you. No one who isn’t part of my relationship will ever have the right to make decisions regarding that relationship, and I won’t ever be partnered with anyone who will make decisions about my relationship with them based on their other partner’s jealousy. That is a very firm boundary of mine.

It is okay to acknowledge a partner’s feelings and work with them to help them feel better while still holding to your boundaries. If you had done that, then you wouldn’t have felt the need to retaliate the way you did due to your own jealousy once the tables were turned.

Both of you would do well with a more secure attachment style. Go read Polysecure by Jessica Fern together.

Echoing the other comment, I don’t think you’re being unreasonable or unfair.

It could also be worth seeking out relationship counseling/therapy for you and Cheddar. My perception from reading your story is that there could be a lot of communication gaps in your relationship(s). But it’s also clear that you’re caring and empathetic, so maybe you’re only missing some tools and strategies for properly harnessing your empathy.

I’ve been in your shoes my friend. It is difficult when coming from a monogamous world trying to step into polyamory and letting the emotions that we’ve been trained our whole lives to listen to take over our thoughts and feelings.

I’ve been polyamorous for 26 years now, and the one thing I’ve learned is that there is no way I can be useful or joyful with my partners if I don’t take care of myself first. The way I’ve been participating in polyarmory for the last 10 years or so with all my partners is that none of my relationships should affect any of my other relationships within certain mutually agreed bounds. So if I set some time aside for a partner, that time is only for that partner and what happens with that partner is only between us. And I expect the same from all of my partners as well.

But I also don’t do envy or jealousy anymore either, so my advice might not really be applicable to you.

I feel like you are being unfair to Swiss. You slow down the speed at which your relationship progresses for the sake of a person that has no stakes in it. And now you alloe Cheddar to do the same. I think both of you give each other way to much power and weight in your relationship progress. If I put myself in Swiss or Gouda position I would also be hurt.

I once was in the situation where my partners new relationship resulted in so much jealousy. I think part of it was due to my partners actions, but mostly it was due to my own insecurities which I did not examine close enough before commiting to polyamory. This resulted in a similar situation where I wanted to feel like I had control and I did that by trying to control their relationship, which did not end well. Instead I should have reminded myself of my boundaries and examined me they where crossed (they were sometimes), should have asked for adherence to our agreements(sometimes they were broken) and should have asked for reassurance way more often(I kinda never did, I felt like a failed poly person for doing it).

Just as others suggested talking about this with Cheddar is the way to go. I would also suggest you talk with Swiss about the constraints you put on your relationship and why.