Just came back from my holiday to Basque country, where I spent almost three weeks. I decided to take a break from politics (as far as possible in Basque country lol). To make this easier, my phone randomly decided to die a few days in, so I lost all connection to the world.

I wanted to use the holiday to find myself again. I was dealing with anxiety for the past two-three months, overly worrying about money and the future even though it may not have been needed to do so.

I did some hikes on the rocky beaches and through the mountains for a few days. I spent days on the beach relaxing and swimming. My gf gave me a book that, according to her, was meant to take me away from politics. She gave me ‘Fall of Giants’ by Ken Follett. For those who have not read it, it’s a book about the labour struggle in England, the (build up to) the first world war, fall of aristocracy and the Russian Revolution. It even features Lenin lmao. It’s mostly fiction, so she probably thought it would be nice for me to read fiction. I am enjoying the 1000 page book so far, so she was right.

While looking for balance in life, I had my great breakthrough on a rock. I was swimming at the beach when I suddenly felt the urge to swim past the cliff seperating the bay from the sea. There was nothing but cliffs behind it and I decided to go back when I suddenly saw a small rock protruding from the sea. I swam to it and climbed it, facing my back to the land. I saw nothing but ocean in front of me and I sat there for over an hour, staring into the distance. I saw water, incredible clouds, a far away thunderstorm and a boat in the distance, slowly passing by. I sat there thinking how this view will be the same in a hundred years and that I’ll be long gone by then. And so will be the people back at the beach, together with all our worries. It made me realize again how little time I have in this place and how much time I spent worrying about unimportant things. When the hour was gone, I felt like a weight was gone from inside my head and my shoulders, and I swam back to the beach.

I enjoyed my stay in Basque country. I tasted the local cuisine, spent some time at the beaches, the bars and in between the Basque people. I enjoyed the countless political flags and (communist) statements made everywhere. I enjoyed the easy and laid back way of living and I feel refreshed. I’m ready to continue the communist fight over here now, and I have a lot of things coming up.

And, importantly, I will start my new job at the Union next monday.

How is life going? Have I missed important things while I was gone?

  • ImOnADiet@lemmygrad.ml
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    1 year ago

    Wb Dankzedong, I was wondering where you had been stalin heart hands

    I’m at a weird place in my life. I’m about to fail the 2 summer classes I’m taking, I was just diagnosed with ADHD-PI, my plans to get an apartment with one of my best friends fell through (at least I still have this one to live in!), but I don’t feel as despondent as I think I normally would. Idk sorry if I’m oversharing I’ve been drinking

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      1 year ago

      Sounds like you’ve hit a rough patch, but good on you for not letting it all get to your head. Do you plan to do something with your diagnose?

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        1 year ago

        thank you! I’ve been on adderall for a week and it’s seemed to help some, I might need to up the dosage a little. my counselor wants me to find someone specialized in adhd but I haven’t done that

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          That’s good to hear. Therapy/guidance can be a good option to help you with problems you (may) face. My brother has pretty severe ADD and he still is thankful for the help he got with counseling. It helped him getting through trade school and landing a pretty okay job.

          Good luck on passing the classes. I hope you can still make it or at least that you’ll be able to retake them if possible.