Assad must go (I will delete soon)

Weed makes me paranoid and cranky. Maybe I was born weeded and smoking pushes me into negative weed territory, idk

I will delete my account around this week. While I had the best time on here with this account so far, I am beginning to feel the serotonin kick turn into addiction. I also don’t wanna become a famous poster, for a host of reasons. I will return eventually, but it’s best to end this run and say goodbye for now.

I am experiencing improved short term memory to a degree that is surprising me. Small things like clearly remembering what I did yesterday, seeing a five digit code for a second and being able to reproduce it. Time perception has also changed, The last three years were more or less a constant haze. Now moments feel “fuller”, less distant and foggy, but also not like “lost time”.

Nothing in my habits changed that much except maybe allowing for more “small luxuries” and not just eating bread, water and a vegan spread. I did significiantly improve my abilities in a language, that is the biggest difference, but only noticed it now, after the biggest period of learning has been over for some months

So while I am happy, I am confused about why this happened.

Revelation 18;23: "(…)

For your merchants were the great ones of the earth,

because all the nations were deceived by your sorcery.”

24 And there was found in her the blood of prophets and saints, and of all who had been slain on the earth

ابادات غير ححدودة على العالم الأول

إن يومنا فيقترب

عاشت الماوية التشينغية

How this actually goes is no3 getting mercilessly curbstomped by one and two, then the democrat throws the sword and blames no3 for losing

I agree

You gotta be able to hit back the neolibs back, verbally, in a manner that exposes their shitty behaviour, if feasible. Become a pillar of the community, if possible. Maybe raise your concern when they say something crass, wait for an opportunity to bring up that it must be nice to afford that much cosplay, small nasty ways to show they are not the same as the rest of the community (if the community is overwhelmingly petit bourgs or LA or , don’t bother too much.) I am at the same spot with a bunch of people and if you are in a place to put them down without losing access to vital ressources and have taken precautions, there are only so many ways we can fight back rn and wrestling control from shitty “community leaders” is the best we can hope for, often.

I don’t mean to talk down to you, your irritation is valid, I just think it shouldn’t be the end point, otherwise it will just turn into stewing resentment. I am not excluding myself from needing to do that more often,

I honestily didnt know that

I am not happy that it didnt work, so I will try again: To outsiders, it seems like my personality completely shifts, but I experience no significant breaks in memory or self-perception, as a rule

I have been told is a girl, my bad

tagging @AOCapitulator@hexbear.net coz they asked as well

Show it them anyway

dyspraxia can’t hurt me, those evas are gucci

Yeah, I will come back after reading some more stuff

Happy to provide

I hate that blergh was taken by a chud from another instance, would be another banger name…

This is not meant as a rebuke or lecture, mostly thinking aloud.

I am unsure about reclaiming terms from the shitheads. I suppose it is necessary.

Arguments of positionality are a curse and there are counters to them, but they need to be expanded. For example, tokenism and showing how that person is harming their own group would be a start.

Fakeclaiming requires a lot of looking at individual cases to be even semi viable. It is in my experience mostly harmful.

Arguments should be dealt with in a principaled manner while recognizing identities in a way that stops presupposing that Identity X has a right to opinion Y, I think.

This is not meant as a diss, I just kinda feel tired being suspicious all the time and wanted to give some thoughts(funny thing for a 1 month account to say, but I have been around for some time, I just occassionally delete my acc bc of OPsec, believe me 🥺)