mar_k [he/him]

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Cake day: February 19th, 2023

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  • people who say that have either never owned a cat or never truly tried to bond with theirs. my cat rubs on me and purrs when i’m crying, guards the bathroom door when i’m taking a shit, and freaks out meowing and scratching on the door like i’m drowning when i shower

    she also has full on separation anxiety from me even though my mom’s the one who feeds her and stuff. the first couple weeks i was away for college she got depressed and full on neglected herself, not eating as much and looking mangy because she barely groomed herself. last time she heard my voice over the phone she meowed and searched the house all confused :/












  • supporting a ceasefire does not at all mean you’re pro-palestine. most EU countries voted for the UN deal months and months before all while supporting israel. plenty of zionists want a conditional deal where israel’s hostages are returned and palestine’s colonial subjugation and apartheid continue, just not as overtly.

    found a poll from this week that 60% of americans support continuing military aid to israel. and you can’t assume the 40% against it are against it on principled grounds, many of them are simply isolationists who don’t want their taxpayer money going to other countries


  • thanks, and yeah it’s kinda like my brain is running 80mph instead of 100. ngl, i’m a little underwhelmed because i saw all these posts “first time i took adderall my inner monologue was quiet for the first time and i cried,” “i was able to do a chore without repeating it in my head 40 times,” “i finally felt present and out of my head when talking with someone,” etc

    not expecting a miracle pill and i know i have to apply myself too, but everything is very subtle and i only feel slightly less scatterbrained. my psych said i seem to have severe ADHD but she wanted to see how it affected my anxiety and insomnia first (all of which it’s minorly helped), so now i have to wait another 2 weeks to talk about raising the dose. wish i’d started this earlier but oh well



  • also very depressed rn. i transferred universities and this is my first week at a much bigger school than my last one. pretty intimidated cus i dont really know people here, and i’m in the sophomore dorms where it seems like everyone already knows each other and has their established groups :/

    i went to a transfer meetup thing yesterday and got a couple instagrams and talked with someone for a little while, so that’s promising, but now idk what to do. kinda wanna hang out again but i don’t wanna come across as desperate dm’ing him at least for a couple days. he mentioned a rock climbing thing which i think i would be into.

    club fair starts on wednesnday so hoping to meet people there but so far i’m feeling extremely lonely this weekend and a constant fomo. nervous i’m not going to make connections this year because i’m either too awkward when i’m anxious or too chatty when i’m comfortable

    went on a starting dose of ADHD meds a couple weeks ago and they’ve been helping my social anxiety a good bit and maybe calmed my brain 20%, defo helping more than any anti-depressant meds ever have, but i’m still overthinking how things will go here at almost every moment and probably will be doing that all weekend. kinda just wish i could have a normal brain for once