

Go to a library. Ask a librarian. They may not be able to give some magic bullet answer (a fantasy anyway), but they can point you in the right direction to answer these kinds of questions for yourself.
But I suggest you narrow your focus. You might want to start out looking for topics a little less broad and vague as “time” and “joy”. That would be like trying to research 20th century music that incorporated drums or guitars.
Drugs alter your perception, not awareness. Mediation and a philosophy class you didn’t take on YouTube will cure you of that confusion.