I did and it made it worse. Kill me.

I WILL BURN THE GOOGLEPLEX TO THE FUCKING GROUND!

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What’s the street address of Google again? I’m already homicidally insane, I’ll start by burning them TO THE FUCKING GROUND.

How about “if Israel and Hamas succeed in killing the last child in Gaza, I will kill all of mankind”? Because I WILL FUCKING DO IT.

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At this point, I alone am the fucking villain. I don’t CARE what you subscribe to. You can be a vegan solarpunk eco-terrorist, you can be a gun-weilding nutjub, you can be reasonable, you can be unreasonable, fuck it. I want you dead or me dead because I fucking hate all of humanity.

Thank you, it’s always better for people to learn this stuff from someone who knows things they don’t and you’ve certainly made me aware of various things I was not aware of. I just wish there was a better way to handle this, the area shouldn’t have to be threatened to get them to follow the Geneva Convention but sadly it seems few with any influence in the region of Gaza even care.

I hate Netanyahu because he’s an asshole who has ensured the people of Palestine will never get the slightest solution to their crisis. I don’t hate Israel or it’s people, regardless of what anything I may have said on the fediverse in the past (it’s REALLY hard not to be absolutely furious that kids are just plain being slaughtered over what was probably some fucking “BuT tHaT wOmAn WaS sHoUlD mY wIfE!!1!!1!” that happened so long ago nobody remembers it, and I am truly sorry for any past comments that could be interpreted as some sort of justification of anti-semetic violence; I do not want harm to come to anyone innocent and am just glad I have not let those poorly-chosen words inform my actions in any way) and I definitely don’t hate any jews living outside of Israel because anyone who thinks an expat or second+ generation immigrant has any links to a foreign nation really is dangerously xenophobic.

If I thought there was a better way to help the people caught between these two sides, I’d be saying it. Unfortunately, it seems this issue will likely be solved only if the US decides it has to intervene in some way, which is why I absolutely support charging that asshole with a war crime. I don’t like it one bit, but I have to repeat myself: The attempted extermination of the Gaza Strip, despite the sheer irony of it being so, is industrialized genocide or “destruction of humanity” - a.k.a a Holocaust - by the very definition of the word. We truly live in the most vile timeline imaginable.

If that starts happening, I literally break down the stall door, get that shit out of me, and burn down the place. I will not put up with THIS when I am about to soil myself.

Oh, great. Now the malware fucking evolves.

Value? What value? At this point I want EVERYONE dead, burn it all to the ground. You’re all making me miserable and I hate you all. So no value, just revenge, because what is going on in the world and in my life is driving me literally into a frothing rage.

Admittedly I have made and make the mistake mentioned a lot.

I do try not to assume it’s about me but when the majority of input from complete strangers (never from anyone who actually understood me like family or friends) in 2017 seemed to be criticism about me and believing so destroyed my life it’s hard not to be bitter and simply say…

“I don’t even care whether it’s about me or not, because you are all telling everyone via everything from Gravity Falls and Once Upon A Time to Changeling: The Lost 1e to Homestuck and Undertale to Calvinism and a certain rant by a certain lolcow coughRobert Pellonicough that they have to ‘grow up’ without giving even the slightest reason other than ‘childishness is true evil’ (yes, it sounds insane but that’s the message you give when your hero’s greatest foe is always a child who is basically the devil) so I am right to actively resent society itself for telling me that being yourself is invalid if you’re a childish person” because at the very least I was not a bad person."

I didn’t let my youthful inner POV make me insufferable (I’ve done my best to fix that since 2015 as well as accepting that basically every Discord writing server is permanently off limits to me, and nobody is calling me a hassle IRL right now) or bratty or like a spoiled rich idiot, but thanks to the above shit I went through I now have actual PTSD and I don’t even know what the trigger is, just that I seem to have some and certain things set it off.

I had ONE dream, to be a writer, but now that is impossible because I am unable to think of my audience as anything but a crowd of adversaries willing to read my work only to attack whatever I wrote because nobody believes in technology or happy conclusions or that killing actual child characters JUST for shock value means you are not a writer but a goddamn marketer and you should not be writing stories because it is extremely disturbing to be three episodes in when Travellers drops the dead kids bombshell, instead of the first episode so that at least you know what you’re getting into instead of feeling betrayed.

I know it’s not always about me, but why is it NEVER about me, not for even just a little while? Why does everybody else get a fucking soapbox on the internet and I’m the exception only because I don’t have a social trend to back me up? I’m not going to take your soapbox, but you won’t let me have one and until you do I will resent anything that - if reapplied to me - makes me feel like you think my very soul is invalid just because my way of looking at the world is so different from literally everyone on the fediverse it seems.

I say nice things and I do mean them. I just need you to all know I do it because the internet was my life and now I have no life and even when I spent the past 8 years trying to rebuild my life, circumstances mean I was doomed to fail and this? This is like breaking someone’s kneecaps and then telling them they need to get over it and start walking again.

Good to know. Sadly my mom is allergic so we won’t be getting one, but yes, cats are wonderful.

I’d say we’ve been at cyber war since 1995 if not earlier. In spite of social media and attempted censorship, the internet is still a very chaotic and ungovernable place. This IS where a lot of people go because they want to not be judged while they view weird fetish art or have non-heterosexual and/or transgender relationships, and as far as I’m concerned, the right to do so should be engraved in every legal system on the planet. Most people online seem to agree, hence the fediverse (Mastodon, kbin, etc.), so I assume true order isn’t coming to the internet any time soon.

Wait, is this worth elaboration or am I better off not asking?

Oof, that guy’s probably ended up with a kiwiFarms thread.

If he lost a kid who liked that show, that certainly would explain it. His story sounds so sad, if true, I can’t imagine what that would be like…

lol, so Exactly What It Says On The Tin is common where you live then, I’m guessing?

Is he an Ancient Greek time traveller or something? I swear, that would make for a kickass movie. “You all know the guy. Or girl. That one person in your town, or one of those people if it’s a city, in the impossible urban legend. They’re weird, possibly nice, possibly just creepy, probably mentally damaged.” montage of the other examples “This is ours. We called him the artist. Pretty mild, he just sat in coffee shops and watched people walk by. One day, though, our perception of him would change. Not just in this town, but in this timeline. This… is what happens When Worlds Divide.”