like why not just make it back circle or forward circle if ur averse to the typical double quarter circle motion? idk. never got it. they’ve axed other finnicky legacy shit for this game.

i know it’s a skill issue but i really wish guilty gear would just retire the back circle forward super input, especially since it’s only selectively applied to certain characters. ive played this shit since release and am still so inconsistent with it

he’s actually secretly a softie who loves his friends and is everyone’s grouchy dad but it takes a bit to figure this out and at a glance he can feel like shadow the hedgehog levels of edgycool

MFW 2.5 weeks between dates middle of next week can’t come fast enough!!!

doubly so since I have wildly different relationships with different people.

yeah this is part of what gives me misgivings about the whole conceptual framework as well. like i probably read as “avoidant” in the relationship i outlined above, and while i think there’s certainly work i can do there, i also think i didn’t generally feel emotionally safe in that relationship/i felt a lot of baseline stress around them which is what led to that seeming avoidance. there are other relationships i have with other people where im pretty open and comfortable, with some exceptions. it all just seems so contextual.

i oscillate pretty wildly between the two tbh, wonder what that makes me

is attachment style legit? i have an inherent distrust of most pop psych trends but…

anyway would def be down to read more on this subject in a more legitimate/rigorous format than internet posts and tiktok and shit…

there is a spike in my fucking skull remind me not to mix types of liquor when im binge drinking

yeah i’d become more in the last few years (between the Bernie ratfuck in 2020 and then the pandemic and some other shit), but today the state of things is really getting to me. doesn’t help that i’m hungover w/ the attendant anxiety and paranoia that brings

paused the apps last night. while we’re not exclusive or official at all, I know the person I’ve been seeing did the same. I’d been doing my swipes and shallow bullshit convos with my matches out of a sense of obligation more than anything, like i “should” keep backup options, but figured it’s best to cut that dehumanizing noise out of my life while I’m feeling out a solid (if brand new) connection. we’ve only hung out three times in the flesh but we’re gonna do a lil phone chat this weekend, then ima see her next week. hope things keep going well, if not its very easy to reboot the stupid Satan Apps

while im uncomfortable, diarrhea on my last day is actually kind of a fitting send off for this workplace

i’d show you a super pure and stubborn love regardless like a completely insufferable power of friendship shonen protagonist, sorry

i mean if material conditions continue to degrade, ya know…but that won’t be my choice…

might give fear and hunger another go on normal difficulty this time. the vibes and world were immaculate but the gameplay was just too frustrating, i get that the brutal unforgiving nature is designed to reinforce the themes but shit like torch management simply got too tedious for me especially as someone with a poor sense of direction prone to getting lost in games

on a long enough timeline…the treats consume you

i was bein a lil cheeky/facetious lol but thankfully my drinking isn’t at that level, but also i def have been known to drink + vidya so ya prob not the move for ya boy

i hope you’ve learned a lesson abt fake friends

night walks do be a thing of beauty agreed but my issue is they can also lend themselves to drinking IME lol. they’re a super nice thing to do for their own sake though, substance management aside!

having had some casual sex experiences recently that were like…nothing, i kinda see more how a monogamish open relationship might work OK for me. but that kinda cuts both ways: casual sex is generally unimportant to me, so it’s also not a big deal for me and a potential partner to simply not have it if that avoids unnecessary complication or hurt. also feel like i’d be open to swinging with a partner which i see as somehow different? but it’s also far from something i need, just something i’d be open to trying if my partner also wanted it.

idk, having one promising/potentially serious prospect has really killed my desire to swipe much or try to maintain a “roster,” even though it’s brand new and far from exclusive or official in any capacity. i can’t tell if that’s my monogamous tendencies talking, or my hatred of dating apps. i swipe when im taking a shit still and will try to strike up convos with my matches here and there, but it’s more because i feel like i “should” to like…guard my heart maybe since my current thing isn’t really “real” yet? i also know she deleted her apps and said “realistically i’m not gonna keep up with them, if i go on dates it’ll be people i meet irl” which maybe means we’re both Passively Non-Exclusive but Focused on Each Other? idk she seems to have a network of queer woman friends, so probably has more irl dating opportunities than i do as a hetmasc.

i’m surely overthinking all of this and wish i were better at going with the flow on things but oh well that is simply the SoylentSnake way, learn to love it or decide u don’t fw me!

i didn’t realize there are rules like this i’m new to giving a shit about how i dress wallahi i am finished