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I’m so sorry. But on the one hand, if you haven’t started anything yet, that’ll be less of a paper trail for you. I’ve been on hrt for a year, and I can only imagine they’ll try and ban the drugs entirely. I haven’t changed my name, but I have changed my gender marker. You’re losing time, time you’ll sadly never get back, but in my case, I will lose time, my meds, all the progress I’ve made. I… don’t know how to deal with this.

We sure do… I’ve been on hrt for over a year now, at least, so there’s that.

Me too. Although I’m not out yet. I’m thinking I’ll need to scramble, now, to put in my name/passport changes before I potentially lose the chance. Of course, I don’t pass, don’t have the wardrobe, makeup or body to pass. I wanted to wait a little longer before coming out, lose weight, fix my shit, you know. Don’t have the money to do anything, change anything how I want.

I feel ill. I wish I could go back to sleep, but I’m too wound up on fear and trepidation.

An abusive partner accusing the other of cheating is very often a projection of the fact they themselves had been cheating. Since they know they would cheat, and were/are, they either assume the other person is the same way, or simply don’t want to draw attention to their affair. It’s an awful thing.

CDPR had originally announced a multiplayer mode, and then canned it after the launch disaster. Apparently there’s a mod being made to put it back in, though, that’s neat.

Because the people with that holier than thou attitude believe that if they just convince enough people, their socialist/progressive third party that gets one vote every election will definitely overtake both Dems and Republicans in a total landslide, and will immediately stop the genocide in Palestine and the war in Ukraine once they’re in. Or they’re a tankie accelerationist and want trump to win because they think it will lead to a revolution and their perfect political utopia will be in place in mere weeks. They’d just rather die of old age, suffering in a corrupt and polluted fascist hell decades after all their friends were culled, than ever admit that they are wrong or ever accept they will never live to see their desired future.

Edit: I realize I sound super rude and aggressive in the last sentence, sorry. I say they’ll never live to see it because something like eliminating capitalism is an extreme long term goal. It can’t happen overnight, or in a single geneation. It’s too deeply engrained in the entire operation of the world as it stands. It has to be pruned back until it can be removed. It’s like that one phrase, something like men plant trees in whose shade they’ll never sit, or something like that. I don’t think I’ll live to see it either, but I would love to. I’d definitely prefer a socialist society, capitalism has been the cause of all my life’s traumas. But you just can’t get the world to change that fast.

Some months ago, I suddenly realized my birth certificate could be problem, I was born in a red state but only lived there for less than a year as a baby before my mom moved us back to a state in New England. And of course I ended up being trans. So I looked up my birth state’s rules and just couldn’t stop crying, I even left work early that day because I was so upset by it. Fuck the right, fuck the bigots.

Projection or wrong thread?

People say this every time it happens, and AAA game developers have been putting out unfinished broken crap for exorbitant prices for well over a decade, now. Don’t preorder after starfield, don’t preorder after cyberpunk, don’t preorder after fallout 76, don’t preorder after anthem, don’t preorder after…

Oh wait, there’s a new game coming out soon, I should preorder, can’t wait to play it!

I love CDDA and played it loads on desktop, but I could never get into the Android version. The touchscreen controls are painful, but of course they kind of can’t be anything but painful. I think most people play with Bluetooth keyboards, but I figure that if I have to use a Bluetooth keyboard, I might as well just be playing it at my desktop. Still have CDDA installed on my phone anyway though.

You’re still making them do something they didn’t consent to. They will still chew on bugs and small prey animals (when they get access to them, which isn’t often for indoor cats), because it’s etched into their behavior. They will take every opportunity they get. You can’t make a cat vegan, you can only force a cat on a vegan diet. Can’t you understand the qualitative difference there?

A person understands the reason they’re eating only plants with no animal byproducts. An animal doesn’t. An animal is just confused and irritated that their food was changed for the worse by their owner. If their diet and mountain of supplement pills/powders did not actually meet their dietary needs because it wasn’t an exact match for their regular food or natural prey, they would still end up malnourished. And not every cat’s dietary needs are the same or stay the same as they age.

Malnourished or not, you also wouldn’t be able to stop your cat from finding a mouse or insect which snuck into your home and devouring them to enhance their compromised diet. You cannot make a carnivore vegan, you can only abuse them into living in a way they do not naturally live and do not want to live, until they find a way to avoid you for just long enough to go against your wishes and savage another animal, as is their instinctive nature.

Furthermore, do you really think animals have no joy in what they eat, that that’s only a human quality? Nutrition doesn’t matter to the animal, they just want to eat what they want to eat. Cats almost never turn down an offer of cream or milk despite 90% or more of them being lactose intolerant. It’s not nutrients their body needs or can absorb, and actively makes them feel ill. But they want it anyway because it’s tasty and they aren’t able to consider the consequences of their actions as far in advance as humans can.

Edit: In fact, going off that same point but for humans, you could probably make a human live off some kind of tasteless nutrient bar that gives everything you could need, but it wouldn’t mean they’d enjoy it. Oh wait, we did do that before, as a cruel punishment for prisoners in the US, fucking nutraloaf!

They can’t eat all types of peanut butter. If a brand of peanut butter that contains xylitol is fed to a dog, it will make them sick and potentially kill them. Xylitol is used as an artificial sweetener, and is very toxic to dogs. Don’t ever feed your pets human food without checking what’s in the ingredients label.

That’s rather defensive and hostile to what that other person said, but go off I guess?

And then when they do update the game, and add 20 more dollars of new dlc at the same time, if you’re someone who likes mods, well congratulations. Your installation is ruined and you can’t go back to your saved game(s) without there being some level of headache involved. At this point a high seas version of stellaris would probably be a relief, since there’s no auto updates and all dlcs. But here I am, a sucker who bought like three-quarters of the dlc over the years and can’t even play it because I’ll just be sad my last playthrough got ended prematurely with a dlc release… Fuck Paradox and all their games.

Oh wow, I could never put to words why I didn’t like the body type system either, but you nailed it. Yeah, I also wish that games could just give you sliders and/or more presets or something to have actual variety. If a game will only support curvy girls and buff dudes, but won’t also let people make, for instance, cute androgynous cat boys, or anything else a person might fancy, then what’s the point of it?

Sorry, this is gonna be kind of long and rambly. So, I’m transfem and kinda sorta nonbinary (still figuring it out, but putting an x on my driver’s license felt the most right to me, when I did that). Been on hrt for a year, my transiversary was this past Sunday in fact, and I am turning 30 this year. Finally got on progesterone, and switched from sublingual estradiol pills to estradiol patches, and they seem fine with no ill effects so far; very exciting. I’m still not out socially (I’m kind of afraid to) so that’s kind of a downer, but I’m still way happier than I was before. Consequently, I also don’t have makeup or girl clothes. Need to get those too, but it’s rather hard, between the dicey financial situation and a home life where I’m not completely sure how risky coming out to my mother will be.

Apperancewise, I’d consider myself a work in progress. I need to lose weight as a top priority for my health and looks, I’m very heavy. And I want bigger boobs (who doesn’t?) since my current measurements are a 44c, but while that’s apparently more than a lot of girls get in their transitions, they just look so tiny on me, between the chubby gut and the big rib cage. I was hoping I’d get lucky and not need breast augmentation to have a reasonably nice chest, but it’s looking like it’s gonna need to happen some time.

I also definitely need to visit a salon. I’ve needed to for like the last 4 years, still haven’t been to one since way back at the start of the covid pandemic (goodness gracious, where has the time gone), but despite that, my hair is nice and long and curly, and I wear it in a cute side style, even when boymoding (which admittedly is kinda my only mode when I’m out of the house at this time). Honestly, it just kinda fits me too well, and thats like my biggest source of euphoria right now. It’s just a tad scruffy, but otherwise so close to exactly how I want it to be. I need to dye it red some time, too. I have a thing for dyed red hair… Literally every customizable girl character in every video game I’ve ever played, I’ve always gone with red hair and this same sort of hairstyle, even before I knew I was trans. As if it’s written into my very soul!

But anyway, I also have some self conscious feelings about my face. You know, the common stuff like dysphoria about the stupid brow ridge, etc etc. So I’m thinking maybe facial feminization is something I’ll need to seek out some day too, but I am also trying to just get used to loving myself without needing surgery. I already got over my high cheekbones! But hair removal, gosh that really can’t come soon enough. Please delete every last one of these awful hairs from my chin and upper lip! I really gotta find a place for laser hair removal, and hopefully be able to afford it.

I’ll spare any additional rambling, I’ve said a lot as it is. I think my transition is going decently, like I could improve in a lot of ways, including actually coming out and socially transitioning some day, as I said earlier, but nevertheless I’m pretty happy with the progress I’ve made since a year ago. We all go at our own pace, right?

The android was named Ash

When someone starts accusing their partner of cheating out of the blue, it can rather often mean they themselves have been cheating and are projecting their insecurity about it onto their non-cheating partner. I’m sorry you went through that, but it’s great to hear you’re in a better situation now.