Does this make sense at all? In my head, it’s the most clear. When written, I feel like I’m not able to fully express what I’m thinking. When speaking, it’s like fucking Russian roulette and can be wonderfully put together and eloquent or stroke-like.
Is there any way to improve this or is it just the way my damn brain works?
I think my experience is somewhat related, although from the opposite end - all of my thoughts exist as language and I really struggle with ideas that aren’t already “spoken” in my mind. I was completely unable to mentally picture anything in my “mind’s eye” before my head injury, I had to describe images to myself using language! Somehow my TBI gave me the ability to mentally picture images if I really focus on it, but it’s still very hard for me and much easier to just narrate.