And somehow getting enough serotonin to get through the next day
I’m so tired, I shouldn’t have stayed up so late.
Next night: fuck it, imma do it again.
And then morning workout flies out cause I am not going to work out when tired right? I can just do it tomorrow when I will be well rested to get ‘‘best efficiency’’
I feel so fucking guilty since a week of skipping it I literally want to cry but I am too tired to do it now
Thing is it is important cause of the trans things and figure you know I have smoll legs I need to carve proportions with sweat and protein uh. I barely can look in the mirror tbh. But just a one good night of sleep tonight
Sleep deprivation got me through many years of work. Not being able to GAF results in not GAF, which is the healthiest possible work and life attitude.
Now jobs I liked (because they paid well) working for people I liked (because they weren’t micromanaging bungholes)? That was different. Regular old grind though? Yeah, I’m giving my least.
I was always suprisingly calm if I didn’t sleep too much. Like everything was slowed down to the comfortable level and I just felt yawn more at peace and chill
But maybe that is more anxiety things. Whatever the reason I was sleep depriving myself casually throrought all the school years because it felt better to be sleep deprived
