• Got_Bent@lemmy.world
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    8 months ago

    At some point in time, I don’t really know when, something snapped in me. I didn’t want silent lovers or anybody wanting to possess any aspect of my being.

    What I want is to live out my remaining days in total anonymity without anybody having any thoughts of me whatsoever to the point that when I eventually die in my house, it won’t even be discovered until my bills have lapsed for a couple months and the police do a wellness check to find my decomposing corpse and can’t figure out who the hell I even am beyond a name on a property tax roll.

    This is not a death wish. It is a desired retirement from interaction. I’m so so very tired of people.

    Lemme comments don’t count. I’m just some random username leaving thoughts in a small online journal that others happen to be able to see.

    • ApatheticCactus@lemmy.world
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      8 months ago

      Same. It’s kinda funny how some people how some people are terrified of dying alone. For me that’s a goal. I know that pain, and I don’t wish that on others, especially anyone I care about.

    • Ziglin@lemmy.world
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      8 months ago

      Unless I happen to find someone I’m romantically attracted to and feels the same way and is just as introverted as me that sounds awesome. Sometimes I wouldn’t mind it coming sooner though.