Almost all my life I’ve absolutely despised children. Pretty much from the moment I stopped being a child I’ve hated being around children.
It doesn’t even matter what the child is doing. Whether they’re laughing and having fun or screaming and throwing a tantrum. The sound of a child being loud activates an almost primal rage that I can barely contain.
I’ve had to leave social gatherings/restaurants/grocery stores all because if I’d stayed I’d have made a complete ass of myself by screaming at a child just for existing.
It’s even worse with infants which makes me feel horrible because I know they can’t help it. I know the kids don’t know any better and it’s our job as adults to get them through childhood, but my blood boils when they get loud or demand attention.
Has anyone else dealt with something like this? Is there anything I can do to stop from getting so angry?
At the end of the day with therapy you get out what you put in. They can’t help you work through issues if they don’t know what they are.
I recently had a breakdown and attended therapy. I decided from the start I’d just be completely open and throw everything I have at them.
It was massively helpful and has transformed my life.
It’s their job to listen and not judge and they’ve definitely heard much much worse stuff.