I really love jobs. Sometimes i wonder if i ahould get a job at the nearby slaughterhouse if i ever get fired from the coal mine. The only reason i havent is that all the blood and gore might be really sexually arousing to me. My fetish (or maybe paraphilia since its involuntary? Idk) means that suffering of all kinds just turns me on. I obviously try to reduce suffering in the world like everyone else. I just have an appreciation for the beuty suffering brings to the world. Like yesterday i cut myself while making soup and i just sort of watched my cat drink the blood on the floor and the absurdity made me happy all day.

So maybe my involuntary masochism and sadism is why i can say things about the meat industry you find shocking.