Hello there, I’m a 21 year old guy from Germany and have very strong depression because of the constant abusive, toxic and manipulative behavior that I received from my parents since I was a kid.

Those strong depression are also the reason why I struggle a lot in life to get anything done by myself and become independent.

I already lived on my own when I was 17 but I failed because of my depression that made me incapable of taking care of myself which is why I moved back to my parents a year ago who only make it way worse for me because they won’t stop hurting me and treating me like a awful person.

I feel so stuck in life and I tried everything from therapy, mental hospital and medications but nothing worked. The burden is just too strong causing me to feel worthless and incapable of living, I have lots of shame, guilt and major anxiety.

It’s like being paralyzed by the fear of life.

My biggest dream always was to get rid of my parents and live independently on my own but I’m just incapable. I wanna get rid of this victim state so bad but I can’t find a way to escape/deal with the hurt.

Is there anything I can do?

  • obbeel
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    2 days ago

    The same electroshock therapy that was used to try to convert a trans person in China? I don’t think that’s a good idea.

    • ERROR: Earth.exe has crashed@lemmy.dbzer0.comEnglish
      2·
      2 days ago

      Its a last resort option, and you should talk to a doctor first.

      Just because something is misused, doesn’t mean its inherently bad.

      Antipsychotic medication is typically used by hospitals against people’s will as a form of abuse but it can still be a valid medication when a patient is voluntarily taking them.

      Edit:

      Also:

      ECT =/= Electroshock

      Electroshock is much older and is more barbaric. Modern ECT is much more reliable.

      Still, its considered a last resort option. Its not great, there is a lot of side effects, but its better than death.