I know what you mean, I had the same contradictory feelings (diagnosed two years ago aged 29) but the assessment label doesn’t actually change anything about you, or much about life. If you have autism you’ve always had it. If you don’t, you can still use strategies that help with autistic sensitivities/limitations, a lot of the techniques for mental limitations will help pretty much anyone.
I can only speak to my own experience, but identifying the specific environmental issues has been far more important than knowing that my problem is autism. Two years of “yes I’m autistic but I get on fine, I don’t need special adjustments” with medication and therapy for anxiety did nothing. Six weeks of wearing sunglasses indoors and outdoors, earplugs most of the time, letting my husband know exactly how many terrible puns I think of instead of quietly assuming they’re too lame to share, and accepting that we need to hire a cleaner because I’m never going to manage the house and it’s like the depressive shroud of my entire adult life has lifted.
I hope you get the answers you need from the assessment, and I encourage you to explore what you can change about your environment regardless of what those answers are. You will get through, and things will get better 💜
I know what you mean, I had the same contradictory feelings (diagnosed two years ago aged 29) but the assessment label doesn’t actually change anything about you, or much about life. If you have autism you’ve always had it. If you don’t, you can still use strategies that help with autistic sensitivities/limitations, a lot of the techniques for mental limitations will help pretty much anyone.
Yeah I feel like I’ll still be me after it all. It’s just that I know I’m struggling and there has to be some reason.
I can only speak to my own experience, but identifying the specific environmental issues has been far more important than knowing that my problem is autism. Two years of “yes I’m autistic but I get on fine, I don’t need special adjustments” with medication and therapy for anxiety did nothing. Six weeks of wearing sunglasses indoors and outdoors, earplugs most of the time, letting my husband know exactly how many terrible puns I think of instead of quietly assuming they’re too lame to share, and accepting that we need to hire a cleaner because I’m never going to manage the house and it’s like the depressive shroud of my entire adult life has lifted.
I hope you get the answers you need from the assessment, and I encourage you to explore what you can change about your environment regardless of what those answers are. You will get through, and things will get better 💜